My Life as Delusional (?) Fans

 

난 널 다 좋아 오빠, 근데….

actually i don’t want to tell you the reason, but since you’ve asked me, so i think i don’t need to hide it anymore right? fine, i tell you then!

Reason why i love 김준수

first.. your voice you said?

yes, true.. i really love your voice.. since you are my favorite singer, of course i love your voice, even your voice are recognized globally, even your ex-company still approve that you are the best trainee and artist they had ever.. your photo still put in their website for audition notice and my friend who lives in korea said, you are the national voice of korea..so, how come i don’t fall for your voice?

second, your appearance huh?

hmm.. your body are well build since you really love sport like soccer and table tennis but actually it’s not really as sculpture like oppa ㅋㅋㅋ, but until now i still wonder, how come you can being cute and innocent yet handsome and sexy at the same time? if i can describe it, it’s like when you smile; world is really peaceful place to live and war is out of dictionary..and when you act seriously, no one can beat your charisma.. (*ahaha..i’m being delusional, but that’s true for me tough.. ) even your twin said that he never bored looking at you and your mom can’t really mad with you.. so, how come i don’t act like that?

third.. your adorable butt? ahahaha..it’s one of them, but i love your personality more than your butt..

your sense of humor never fail to make me laugh, you are really mood maker for your friends,you know how to comfort people and make them happy, when you mad you doing it wittily, you love your family, friends and fans sincerely, even you don’t really show it but i know you are a deep thinker person.. you doing everything passionately.. i can see it when you sing, dance, acting, playing soccer or just playing game.. your tough perseverance really inspires me.. 7 years of training? i would just give up if i were you, romantic man? of course, white lie, picture of you, rainy night and fallen’ leaves are the proof.. you are an animal lover too.. everyone knows that animal lover are soft-hearted person..

Fourth.. my dream man criteria fits you perfectly..

1. Don’t have to be handsome, but when i see him i never get bored of him >> i can’t resist your cuteness and i melt second after you smile..ㅋㅋㅋ
2. Don’t easy to get upset, light-hearted and forgiving >> even you are bullied by changmin or JJ, your smile still hanging in your lips..
3. Has good sense of humor >> OMG sun! oshiri pen pen borupen, who didn’t laugh at this?
4. Can playing one instrument whether it is piano or violin >> your piano performance vs taeyang beat everything..
5. Has a good manner and respect elders >> changmin oppa has talk a lot about this..
6. Close with his mother >> indeed you are!
7. Love animal, especially cats >> you have one dog, seven cats and many carps in your home..
8. Playful, adventurous and kid-like person >> every people know that you are like this..
9. Has a free laughter >> that eukyangkyang matched this…hehehe..
10. Good kisser (hahaha..) >> mozart, TOH, elizabeth are the proof for this..wkwkwk..

Fifth our similarity (?) ㅎㅎㅎ

1. We have hate same things > smoking, alcohol, carbonated drink and mathematics
2. We have same favorite food > eel and chicken, though the recipes are different, but it’s still eel and chicken right? ㅋㅋㅋ
3. We have same dream > having one of all breed cats in this world, weird but really it’s my dream too..
4. We have same favorite place > beach and sea, somewhere that has water in there..
5. We have same favorite drink > young coconut
6. We have same hobby > playing game, read books (manga too) and watching movie
7. We have same flaw > can’t say “S” with speed properly and can’t drawing nicely.
8. We have same blood type > B
9. We have same favorite color > blue and purple
10. We have same favorite scent > watery-fresh scent and baby-like scent

soooo..oppa, i already told you everything.. now you know right? hehehe..

well, i don’t mean to 고백 in here, but i end up doing it.. hihihi..

what’s that matter is 난, 준수 오빠를 너무너무너무너무너무너무너무너무너무너무 좋아! *love shoot ala gumiho*

okay then, i brb washing my face, i think i’m already crazy to write this.. kekekeke…

 

Believe it or not, but It’s true…

I just found something Daebak from Tia…

Daebak isn’t it?

 

Happy Me (행복한 나를)

sorry for long…long time no update..its have been more than a month right?
actually last month, my life and my feeling is mixing into one… nervous, sad, missing, proud, relieve, anxious, happy etc..etc..
so..the first thing that come to my mind in last month is nervous..
why? because 1th june is the first day of my practicum, but sadly, i’ve been sick from 3 days before D-day..
so , the second day i can’t go to office again because doctor said i’ve been infected in lymph nodes, so i can’t really walk, well..i can walk but in zombie position (you know how zombie walk right? )
when i got sick, i started missed my family, my friend, my cat and even my old campus.. (okay, now i know that i love UUM, satisfied? ;P)
luckily, i never go through this alone (well, i’m alone at home, but you know what i mean right?)
i have my very best friend who took care of me (Thank you so much Daisy and Tia..) my caring brother, my dad and my mom (although they didn’t even know that i’m sick..)
i’m proud to have you all..maybe i act tough outside, but actually i can hold my pain because of you guys..^^
once again thank you so much for all your caring..
and then, 2 weeks was passing quickly, i started to go to office and work again although i still can’t sit properly yet..
thanks to all my new friend in office who can understand my condition, they teach me slowly and full of consideration..
i really thank God that whenever i go, i would find people that care for me..
and i thank God too that in my new workplace i experienced many new things, but i’ll tell them in another time, because its too many..^^

so for those all who really care for me, my family and my best friend, i would dedicate this song for you guys..

Happy Me by Huh Gak
(actually, it is a song that Jo Kwon sung for Gain in WGM as Adam couple, so..since i’m a fans of them too, i choose this song to express my gratitude..just ignore the real translation, at the heart of the matter i just want to you guys know that if you all stay by my side, i’m happy..^^ )

so…here is the lyrics..

Happy Me by Huh Gak

몇번인가이별을경험하고서널만났지
myeotbeoninga ibyeoreul gyeongheomhagoseo neol mannatji
그래서더시작이두려웠는지몰라
geuraeseo deo sijagi duryeowonneunji molla
하지만누군갈알게되고사랑하게되는건
hajiman nugungal alge doego saranghage doeneun geon
네가마지막이라면얼마나좋을까
nega majimagiramyeon eolmana joheulkka
나처럼.. 바쁜하루중에도잠시네목소릴들으면
nacheoreom.. bappeun haru jungedo jamsi ne moksoril deureumyeon
함께있는것처럼너도느껴지는지
hamkke inneun geotcheoreom neodo neukkyeojineunji
매일밤집으로돌아갈때그곳에네가있다면
maeilbam jibeuro doragal ttae geu gose nega itdamyeon
힘든하루지친네마음이내품에안겨쉴텐데
himdeun haru jichin ne maeumi nae pume angyeoswiltende

지금처럼만날사랑해줘난너만변하지않는다면
jigeumcheoreomman nal saranghaejwo nan neoman byeonhaji annneundamyeon
내모든걸가질사람은너뿐이야난흔들리지않아
nae modeungeol gajil sarameun neoppuniya nan heundeulliji anha
넌가끔은자신이없는미래를미안해하지만
neon gakkeumeun jasini eomneun miraereul mianhae hajiman
잊지말아줘사랑해너와함께라면이젠행복한나를
itji marajwo saranghae neowa hamkkeramyeon ijen haengbokhan nareul

I can always be happy with me
I can always be happy with me

바쁜하루중에도잠시네목소릴들으면
bappeun haru jungedo jamsi ne moksoril deureumyeon
함께있는것처럼너도느껴지는지
hamkke inneun geotcheoreom neodo neukkyeojineunji
매일밤집으로돌아갈때그곳에네가있다면
maeilbam jibeuro doragal ttae geu gose nega itdamyeon
힘든하루지친네마음이내품에안겨쉴텐데
himdeun haru jichin ne maeumi nae pume angyeoswiltende
지금처럼만날사랑해줘난너만변하지않는다면
jigeumcheoreomman nal saranghaejwo nan neoman byeonhaji annneundamyeon
내모든걸가질사람은너뿐이야난흔들리지않아
nae modeungeol gajil sarameun neoppuniya nan heundeulliji anha
넌가끔은자신이없는미래를미안해하지만
neon gakkeumeun jasini eomneun miraereul mianhae hajiman
잊지말아줘사랑해너와함께라면이젠행복한나를
itji marajwo saranghae neowa hamkkeramyeon ijen haengbokhan nareul

난많은기대들로세상이정해놓은사랑을버리고
nan manheun gidaedeullo sesangi jeonghae noheun sarangeul beorigo
네마음처럼난늘같은자리에
ne maeumcheoreom nan neul gateun jarie
또하나의네가되고싶어소중한널위해
tto hanaui nega doego sipeo sojunghan neol wihae
지금처럼만사랑해줘항상
jigeumcheoreomman saranghaejwo hangsang
너만변하지않으면내전불가질사람은너뿐이야
neoman byeonhaji anheumyeon nae jeonbul gajil sarameun neoppuniya
난흔들리지않아자신없는미래넌미안해하고있니
nan heundeulliji anha jasin eomneun mirae neon mianhae hago inni
넌이제혼자가아니야.. 이젠잊지마
neon ije honjaga aniya.. ijen itjima
너와함께라면언제나행복한나를
neowa hamkkeramyeon eonjena haengbokhan nareul

I can do anything and everything
If my life‘s with you

바쁜하루중에도잠시네목소리들으면
bappeun haru jungedo jamsi ne moksori deureumyeon
함께있는것처럼너도느껴지는지
hamkke inneun geotcheoreom neodo neukkyeojineunji
매일밤집으로돌아갈때그곳에내가있다면
maeil bam jibeuro doragal ttae geugose naega itdamyeon
힘든하루지친네마음이내품에안겨쉴텐데
himdeun haru jichin ne maeumi nae pume angyeo swil tende
지금처럼만날사랑해줘난너만변하지않는다면
jigeumcheoreomman nal saranghaejwo nan neoman byeonhaji annneundamyeon

우예
u ye
내모든걸가질사람은너뿐이야난흔들리지않아
nae modeungeol gajil sarameun neo ppuniya nan heundeulliji anha
넌가끔은자신이없는미래를미안해하지만
neon gakkeumeun jasini eomneun miraereul mianhae hajiman
잊지말아줘사랑해너와함께라면이젠행복한나를
itji marajwo saranghae neowa hamkkeramyeon ijen haengbokhan nareul

난많은기대들로세상이정해놓은사랑을버리고
nan manheun gidaedeullo sesangi jeonghae noheun sarangeul beorigo
네마음처럼난늘같은자리에
ne maeumcheoreom nan neul gateun jarie
또하나의네가되고싶어소중한널위해
tto hanaui nega doego sipeo sojunghan neol wihae

지금처럼날사랑해줘항상너만변하지않으면
jigeumcheoreom nal saranghaejwo hangsang neoman byeonhaji anheumyeon
내전불가질사람은너뿐이야난흔들리지않아
nae jeonbul gajil sarameun neoppuniya nan heundeulliji anha
자신없는미래넌미안해하고있니
jasin eomneun mirae neon mianhaehago inni
넌이제혼자가아니야이젠잊지마
neon ije honjaga aniya ijen itjima
너와함께라면언제나행복한나를
neowa hamkkeramyeon eonjena haengbokhan nareul

how’s the song? touching right?
for the last sentence, i will say again..
Thanks so much for those people that always beside me and always supporting me, please don’t change.. as long as you guys with me..i’m happy..너와함께라면언제나행복한나를..*bow*

 

Lost in You

all of your traces was gone, i can’t believe i experience it trice..
why you so cruel?
why can’t you at least leave a mark that proven i’ve ever know you?
now, i know how’s ‘hana’s postman to heaven’ feel when all traces of jaejun gone…
its like you lost your track..all black..all black..

 

In Heaven and Boys Letter (Hangul and Romaji Lyrics)

Finally, i got the full lyrics for this two song! *happy..happy..* 8)
Well, yesterday withjyj upload the hangul and the translation, since i still have difficulty to read hangul (well, i can read it but not as fast as i read latin )
so i change the hangul into romaji one, now i can sing together with JYJ..

so this is the hangul one for In Heaven :

In Heaven

Song: JYJ (Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu)
Composed by: Kim Jaejoong
Lyrics by: Kim Jaejoong

가지마 　
내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없겠니
다 거짓말 　
전혀 들리지가 않아
아니야 사랑해 　
한 마디 들려줄 수 있겠니
사랑해 　
또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

지금 와서 말할 수도 없어 * 너의 기적 그 모든 게 허상 같아
마지막 그 모습도 서서히 기억 속에만 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아
어딘가에서 날 보고있을까 * 후회해도 늦어버려 볼 수 없어
추억의 그림자에 촉촉한 내 눈물만 그 자릴 지켜보고 있어
난 못해 정말 못해 ・　니가 내 곁에 있을 때 만큼
미안한데 그게 안돼 ・　이젠 모든 게 떨려와
조금 더 기다리다 ・ 꿈 속을 헤매이다 (～헤매이다～)
결국 니 안에서 　눈을 감을까봐
**
가지마 떠나지마 * 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말 * 전혀 들리지　않아
사랑해 널 사랑해 * 한 마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해 * 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

벌써 이런 계절 지나왔어　*너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워졌어
마지막 니 기억도 눈물에 터널 속으로 잠겨져가는 것만 같아

나는 몰래 꿈을 꿀래 * 네가 내 옆에 있지를 않아
이젠 갈게 이만 갈게 * 이젠 너의 길을 따라
끝없는 길을 따라 널 찾아 헤메이다 (～헤메이다～)
그녀를 잃고서 슬퍼만할까봐

가지마 떠나지마 * 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말 * 전혀 들리지　않아
사랑해 널 사랑해 * 한 마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해 * 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수 있니
사랑해 사랑해 사랑해주겠니
가지마 가지마 있어줄 수 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수 있니
제발 돌아와줘….
(back to **)

can’t read yet? don’t worry..this is the romaji one :

kajima
nae gyeote isseojul suneun eoptgetni
da geojitmal
jeonhyeo deullijiga anha
aniya saranghae
han madi deullyeojul su itgetni
saranghae
tto dasi saranghae jugetni

jigeum waseo malhal sudo eobseo
neoui kijeok geu modeun ge heosang gata
majimak geu moseub do seoseohi gieok
sogeman jamgyeojyeo ganeun geotman gata

eodin ga eseo nal bogo isseulkka
huhwe haedo neujeobeoryeo bol su eobseo
chueogui geurimja e chogchoghan nae
nunmul man geu jaril jikyeobogo isseo

nan mothae jeongmal mothae
niga nae gyeote isseulttae mankeum
mianhande keuge andwae
ijen modeun ge tteollyeowa

jogeum deo kidarida
kkum sogeul hemae ita (~hemaeita~)
gyeolgug ni aneseo nuneul
gameulkkabwa

*(Chorus)
Kajima tteonajima
nae gyeote isseojul suneun eoptni
geojitmal da geojitmal
jeonhyeo deulliji anha
saranghae neol saranghae
han madi boyeojul suneun eoptni
saranghae neol saranghae
tto dasi saranghae jugetni

beolsseo ireon gyejeol jinawasseo
neoui heunjeog chaja bwado jiwo jyeosseo
majimak ni gieokdo nunmule teoneol
sogeuro jamkyeo jyeoganeun geotman gata

naneun mollae kkumeul kkullae
nega nae yeope itjireul anha
ijen kalke iman kalke
ijen neoui gireul ttara

kkeut eoptneun gireul ttara neol
chaja hemeita (~hemeita~)
keunyeoreul ilgoseo seulpeo manhal
kkabwa

(chorus)**
kajima tteonajima
nae gyeote isseojul suneun eoptni
geojitmal da geojitmal
jeonhyeo deulliji anha
saranghae neol saranghae
han madi boyeojul suneun eoptni
saranghae neol saranghae
tto dasi saranghae jugetni

(bridge)
kajima kajima isseojul su itni
geojitmal geojitmal deullijiga anha
saranghae saranghae boyeojul su itni
saranghae saranghae saranghae jugetni
kajima kajima isseojul su itni
geojitmal geojitmal deullijiga anha
saranghae saranghae boyeojul su itni
saranghae saranghae saranghae jugetni
kajima kajima isseojul su itni
geojitmal geojitmal deullijiga anha
saranghae saranghae boyeojul su itni
jebal dolawajwo…

kajima tteonajima
nae gyeote isseojul suneun eoptni
geojitmal da geojitmal
jeonhyeo deulliji anha
saranghae neol saranghae
han madi boyeojul suneun eoptni
saranghae neol saranghae
tto dasi saranghae jugetni

And..this is for Boys Letter :

Boy’s Letter

Song by: JYJ (Jaejoong, Yuchun, Junsu)
Composed by: Kim Hyung Suk
Lyrics by: Kim Jaejoong

나 밖에 모르는 소녀가 있죠
언제나 제자리에서 날 일으켜주는 별 같은
이기적인 바보같은 나에게
고맙다 사랑한다 말해줘서 눈물이 나
이젠 너의 하늘이 될께 네가 찬란하게 빛날 수 있게
나와 영원히 사랑하겠니
홀로 남은 뒤 나 혼자서 무엇도 들리지 않아
너 없인 살 수가 없어
나의 유일한 빛은 너란 말야. 내게…
나 밖에 모르는 여기 내가 있죠
사랑해 말도 못하는 비겁한 소년이었죠

니가 웃고 울어도 난 모르고…
고맙다 사랑한다 말해줘서 눈물이 나 이젠 너의 하늘이 될께 더 이상은 눈물 흘리지 않을께

하늘과 빛의 손이 마주 볼 때에
너에게 향한 이 편지를 보낼께
나와 이곳에 있어 주겠니
암흑같은 차가움 속에
서로의 체온을 믿고 뜨거운 태양이 되어
잊을 수 없는 모든 하늘의 노래 되어
두눈을 감아 추억해봐도 더 이상 지치지 않도록
사랑해줘서 날 지켜줘서 너무나 감사해
이젠 너의 하늘이 될께
사랑할 수록 더 더욱 밝아지는 별
Woo 이젠~ 　Woo

너의 심장을 울릴 수 있게
나와 영원히 사랑하겠니
홀로 가는 길에 혼자서
서로의 체온을 믿고 뜨거운 태양이 되어
잊을 수 없는 모든 하늘의 노래 되어
두눈을 감아 추억해봐도 더 이상 지치지 않도록
사랑해 줘서 날 지켜줘서 너무나 감사해
이젠 너의 하늘이 될께

and this is the romaji for Boys letter :

na bakke moreuneun sonyeoga itjyo
eonjena jejari e seonal il eukyeojuneun byeol gateun

ikijeog in babogateun nayege
gomapta saranghanda malhaejwoseo nunmuri na
ijen naeui haneuli dwelkke nega chanlanhage bitnal su itge

nawa yeongwonhi saranghagetni
hollo nameun dwi na honjaseo mueotdo deulliji anha
neo eobsin sal suga eobseo
naeui yuilhan bicheun neoran malya, naege…
na bakke moreuneun yeogi naega itjyo
saranghae maldo mothaneun bigeobhan sonyeoni eotjyo
niga utgo uleodo nan moreugo…
gomapta saranghanda malhaejwoseo nunmuri na ijen neoui haneuri dwelkke deo isangeun nunmul heulliji anheulkke
nawa yeongwonhi saranghagetni
hollo nameun dwi na honjaseo mueotdo deulliji anha
neo eobsin sal suga eobseo
naeui yuilhan bicheun neoran malya, naege…
haneulgwa bichui soni maju bol ttaeye
neoyege hyanghani pyeonjireul bonaelkke

nawa igose isseo jugetni
amheug gatun chagaum soge
seoloui che oneul midgo tteugeoun taeyangi dweyo
ijeul su eoptneun modeun haneul-ui norae dweyo
dununeul gama chueoghae bwado deo isang jichiji anhtorok
saranghae jwoseo nal jikyeo jwoseo neomuna kamsahae
ijen neoye haneuli dwelkke

saranghal sulog deo deoug balgajineun byeol
Woo ijen~ Woo neoui simjangeul ullil su itge

nawa yeongwonhi saranghagetni
hollo ganeun gil e honjaseo
seoloui che oneul mitgo tteugeo un taeyangi dweyeo
ijeul su eoptneun modeun haneul-ui nolae dweyeo
dununeul gama chueokhae bwado deo isang jichiji anhtorok
saranghae jwoseo nal jikyeojwoseo neomuna kamsahae
ijen neoui haneuli dwelkke

well, i edit some part from the real phonetical into readable one, so i think it much easier to read now..^^
Let’s sing together..enjoy!

Credit (Hangul part) : withjyj

 

Oh..Oh..What’s the name? (of this food)

Finally i can cook again… i’m happy..^^
Actually i intend to make Ddeokbokki, but i ran out of Ddeok itself. So, i just put all chicken ball, crab ball, squid stick, kojujang plus kimchi ramyeon into the pot..
and tarraaa..here it is,

i wonder, what should i call this food? Ramyeonbeokki? Ddalkbeokki? whatever, as long its edible, i will finish it..wanna some everyone? ^^

 

You Can’t Lie to Yourself (again) After Doing This!

Hi readers..Its me again..(stiff intro, i know)
Well, i just wanna share something fun for you guys, some time ago i just read (again) The Princess Diaries series, actually i follow this series since i was in junior high school but its stop when i got addict with Inheritance Trilogy (now its called Inheritance Cycle), Dan Brown books and Hanafiah series by Sitta Karina. But you know the princess mia thing just can’t get off from my head although now i am a college student. The last novel that i read was The princess in pink in Indonesian language version which published in 2004 or 2005 (i can’t remember correctly) so i kinda late to read the continuation of that series.

Luckily, i found the english version of that series in my university library! i never thought that such novel can exist in PSB..maybe because it is in english version, idk either..*shrug*
Well, i pick two novels from the series Princess in Training and Party Princess , and as expected there are many fun things in there..especially in this book

And i found a fun quiz that will describe us well, i try it once and its true, i mean really-really true! you can also try it too if you want to proof it, so here we go..

QUIZ

RULE : Do not cheat! no reading ahead, just answer the question in order!
First, get a pen and paper. When you choose names, make sure it’s people that you actually know. Go with your first instinct. Do this Now!

1. First, write the number 1 through 11 in column. (a/n: you know just write down 1 until 11 in below order)
2. Beside number 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want. (a/n: for instance you write 10 in number 1 and 100 in number 2, its up to you)
3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of numbers of the opposite sex. (a/n: if you male, write the female’s name and if you female, write the male ones)
4. Write anyone names (like friends or family) in spots 4, 5, and 6.
5. Write down four song titles in 8, 9, 10 and 11.

Well, I get my answer like this :
1. 2 (actually i chose this because its my birthday date)
2. 7 (its my fav number actually)
3. Kim Junsu
4. Mama
5. Tia
6. Tiger (its actually my pet)
7. Mr.xxx (i just can’t reveal his name publicly, if you close enough with me, you know who i mean )
8. Picture of You – DBSK
9. Stand by You – DBSK
10. Love is Blind – Tiffany
11. Terrified – Katherine McPhee

what about yours?
Now, let see the answer key…
1. You must tell (the numbers in space 1 and 2) people about this game.
2. The person in space 3 is the one whom you loved.
3. The person in 7 is one you like but can’t workout.
4. You care most about person you put in 4.
5. The person you name in number 5 is the one knows you very well.
6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star. (a/n: i don’t too understand about this part)
7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.
8. The title in 9 is the song for person in 7.
9. The song in 10 tells you most about your mind.
10. The answer in 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life.

Yeah, that is fucking right for me, but i quite shocked because i never realize that i was thinking about terrified in my love life (yeah, the answer means for life, but the song was telling about scare to love someone because fear to lost him/her). Maybe that’s the reason why i never fall in love with my college buddy, (actually i had ask this thing with tia and daisy, but their answer was never satisfy me though).
Yeah well, whatever..

So its all that i want to share with you guys..
My advice, don’t ever lie to yourself again, its better to lie to others than lie to yourself. If you had feeling or something in your mind, don’t ever deny it, just accept and follow the flow, so you can think clearly what you really want for your life.
Okay..see you guys in the next post..^^

 

Jaejoong is Sebastian The Black Butler twin?

Its been a long time since last time i update (or blabbering actually )
Well, to be honest recently i got hook with One Piece, i just can’t stop watching when actually i must do my assignment, but i just watch till episode 266, so its still long-long way to go..
Beside watching one piece, i’m also desperate because i can’t go to thailand for seeing JYJ concert since my mid semester exam is coming up, ah~ really, i hate the cancellation in malaysia part, but i can do nothing about it..so i just save the photos and fancams from withjyj while envying the thai fans and asking myself why i didn’t born as a Bill Gates daughter (sorry dad.. )
Yeah right, I’m a desperate Fangirl..sighed..

Btw, talking about anime and JYJ, there is a photo from JYJ Lotte duty free calendar that catch my intention, here it is..

Despite all talk about how handsome and clean the boys in that pic, when i saw the pic, the first thing that comes to my mind is, Jaejoong style and appearance is similar with one of character in The Black Butler anime (or in Japanese its called Kuroshitsuji) Sebastian Michaelis.

Seriously, its weird to talk like this, since Jaejoong actually is not my bias (well, i’m more Junsu bias) but i like JJ’s style in there, maybe because of his similarity with one of my fav anime character.
Don’t ask my opinion about Junsu style, for me, he looks like a prince as usual and yoochun looks sweet with his charming smile. Whoever the stylist, i like her/his chose, its really fit with each member image.

Well, i think that’s all my blabbering for today since i start to feel sleepy and i still have classes tomorrow..
my cat “Gege” also has mewing to loud calling me for sleep, anyway its already 1:30 am.
So, bubye everyone..have a nice sleep and sweet dreams..

-btw, I missed Junsu, its about two weeks he didn’t online and we didn’t chat like usual, where did he go? is his hotel in thai didn’t have inet connection? but yesterday he already cameback to korea right? blah..whatever, gege calling again..good night! -

 

The Narcisstic of Me

Well, longtime no update, i’m just a bad blogger hiks..hiks..

as usual, i’m too busy with FB, Twitter and that silly assignment thing, so i’m really-really forgot about my blog..
Hell yeah, actually i don’t know what i should post in here, since there are many crazy rambling in my head so i don’t know which one that i had to ramble out loud, its just feels like my head will be blow up and throwing out all of my brain from it exact place…i know its disgusting, but sure, i really mean it.
Whatever about what my thought in the last past day, let’s just ignore it for a while..sighed..

By the way, i just read all my old document in my notebook, and suddenly i found my old poem about myself,
i know its sound so Narcisst, but who the hell that’s not love him/her self, we actually do, EVERYONE ACTUALLY DO although each person has different way to express it.
Well, that’s happened to me to be narcisst in a poem. Actually i had uploaded it before in my FB notes but Let’s check it out..
(WARNING : Prepare a paper bag or plastik bag before you read, in case you want to vomit because its a bit silly and yeah..i know..disgusting.. )

SAAT DIRI BERDEKLAMASI TENTANG EKSISTENSI

namaku putri berlinda.
keegoisanku terkadang membuatku manja laksana putri raja…

dinaungi rasi aquarius, putra sang orion..
membuat hidupku benar-benar mengalir bagai air..
tenang namun menghanyutkan..
walau kadang tak jarang memercik hebat saat terkena hentaman kuat..

layaknya udara yang memang menjadi unsur utamaku..
aku mencoba mengisi kehidupan setiap orang yang berada didekatku..
walau tak jarang seiring berhembusnya waktu,
aku terpaksa pergi karena siklus mengharuskanku begitu..

namun seperti udara pada umumnya…
aku bisa menyejukkan di hari panas ataupun mengobarkan api besar..
tergantung bagaimana orang menyikapiku..

lahir dibulan kedua, merasakan aku dikelilingi cinta..
walau terkadang aku ikut terombang ambing karenanya..

tahun kuda membuatku merasa seperti kuda perang terhadap pejuang..
berani disaat harus melindungi,
terikat dalam emosi setia penunggang dan kudanya..
dibalik semua emosi itu,
aq tetap ingin merasakan damai layaknya kuda tunggangan yang pelihara tuannya..

namun warna mentari senja tak jarang menggambarkan perasaanku..
menjadi pengecut dan khawatir kehilangan..
sensitif dan posesif,merasa ketergantungan dengan suasana yang sama

amethyst mengikatku untuk jujur dan terbuka…
walau uranus adalah planet dengan seribu satu rahasia yang tidak pernah terungkap..

d atas aliran sungai dan hempasan lembut udara yang bergerak perlahan..
aku bertanya tentang arti diri hidup d dunia ini..

seharusnya, karena semua elemen yang menaungiku..
membuat dunia ini tanpa diriku..
hampa..

so..how’s it? i know some of you maybe already thrown up all in your tummy, but it can’t be helped..
you know i looooovvee myself very much and its a kinda my form of giving thanks to God because He already created me as a best Creature in this world..
How’s yours?

 

Lost in Memories

Mungkin hari ini gw cuma sedikit melankolis, entah karena junsu tiba2 bilang mau ngedelete acc fb nya atau karena tiba2 dy addict sama twitter atau karena gw baca rencana nyomi mau bikin acara perpisahan bwt anak2 mayo atau mungkin karena daisy td sms nanyain kak ash bakal praktikum dimana atau mungkin juga karena tiba2 gw denger ada acara di eon dan nama kak ash n kak dija dipanggil sebagai pelajar sem akhir yang mau praktikum.
Hmm..to be honest, i feel a bit lonely..
tiba2 gw ngebayangin gimana hidup gw sem depan.. tanpa temen2 yang bikin gw ngerasa betah disini..
semester ini kalo bosen, gw biasanya nelp daisy ngajakin dy ngobrol nggak jelas tentang politik, kucing atw apapun yang bisa gw omongin sama dy..atau ngajak pergi buat menggila atau buat sekedar ngabisin duit..atau cuma sekedar buat nemenin gw ngelamun di tasik belakang.
Atau gw bakal nelepon tia, ngobrolin tentang semua hal yang berhubungan tentang DBSK..tuker2an video…menggila dengan khayalan kami yang memang kedengerannya gila..atau ngajakin dy jalan atau main kekamar gw..
dan kalo gw lagi pengen jadi adek, gw bakal nelp kak dija atau kak ash..atau kak sen…main2 ke kamar mereka..ngajakin jalan2 nggak jelas..maen ayunan di maybank sambil nyanyi2 nggak jelas atau sekedar curhat n cerita2 sama mereka..
at least kalo gw ngerasa lagi bener2 muak di kamar, gw selalu punya tempat pelarian..
kalo nggak eon ya muamalat..
tapi ngebayangin kalo semester depan, nggak ada lagi yang bisa gw cari di muamalat dan eon..gw ngerasa kayak ada yang ilang tiba2..
gw ngebayangin gimana sepinya disana..karena biasanya baru aja gw masuk kafenya gw pasti ketemu sama salah satu dr anak indo..
dan setiap gw lewat eon..atau makan di nongka, gw pasti nyari sosok 3 kakak itu..
karena persepsi gw eon = kak dija, kak ash, kak sen dan muamalat = anak2 AP3 indo.
Temen2 yang emang biasanya ngumpul bareng2 sama gw, berbagi seneng..berbagi gosip.berbagi susah.
Pasti gw bakal kangen banget buat dateng kesana cuma buat sekedar say hi, diajakin nginep sama para mantan rumet (wulan dan vini), ngisengin anak kamar 313 dan 364 kayak ngegebukin dora pake bantal, mukul2 pantatnya icung pake palu, morotin celananya pipin atau dian dan momen kita semua kerja dan ngumpul bareng2..
hmm..emang sih semuanya pasti kehidupan masing2, life must go on..
nggak seharusnya gw dan mereka tetep jadi mahasiswa abadi yang awet dihutan sintok ini..
setiap orang juga punya mimpi termasuk gw..
dulu, pas perpisahan sma anak2 zae, gw nangis ampe mata gw siwer dan nggak berbentuk, sedih banget rasanya pisah sama temen2 disana, karena buat gw yang notabene selalu jauh dari rumah, temen adalah sodara dan keluarga gw. Dan sekarang gw mulai ngerasa hal yang sama bakalan kejadian lagi, yahh..walaupun nggak ada acara official perpisahan kayak kelulusan dulu, tapi ngebayangin kehidupan gw semester depan sama sekarang bakal beda banget gw ngerasa sedikit nggak nyaman.
Bayangin aja, mereka bakal mulai sibuk gw juga udah semester terakhir..mungkin bakal jarang buka inet atw ym..jadi secara otomatis gw nggak bisa ngobrol sesering sekarang..dan gw takut apa yang kejadian sama temen zae gw bakal keulang lagi disini..itu lho..bingung mau ngomongin apa secara lingkungan dan kondisi udah beda, pergaulannya juga udah beda..hmm..nggak taulah…
berharap gw bisa ngatasin semuanya dengan baik.

ultah ke 20 gw bareng2 mereka..^^

kangen ngumpul2 kayak gini lagi..T.T